Wah really thankful for bryan today larh, talking to me and stuff regarding my spiritual life lor =DD thx.
hmm...lately have been really stressed out in my pursuit for academics and fatigue by my dragon boating larh. But wad really strike me in the talk is about what motives do i have for working so hard and pushing my limits, myself or God.
Recently have really been workinbg very hard for my test, quiz, training, trying to strive for excellence, but sometimes when u are over obsessed with striving for excellence, one often misses out impt point is dat we are studying FOR Him and WITH Him. It's a plainsimple fact, but really very hard for real practise to take place lor. Wah really hope can serve like how i did during holidays. Now with gay time table and dragon boat training really hope not to lose my focus. GOD!!!!! help me lar....
Studying without him, striving without him might be effective. Might work. Might get good results. But one things is for sure. You cling victory and results with unhappiness.
Gonna revert back to proper holistic life style le. Must do it.=)
after evaluation of my attitute, my behavior and stuff, i think i really have to do sumting to change this man. I wanna be salt and light! haha... if i can revert my attention to whats above, to commit my self as i did for my studies and cca, i believe i will do well de!!
Thank You bryan =DD
The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall never be in want.
10:01 PM
10:01 PM
whow, beautiful labour day accompanied by wonderful care group activity! wow really impressed by the family atmosphere in the new care group thru this "cooking" CG =DDD. haha really cool. damn sad i had to leave early anyway. well, apologise to my CG members for not eating with guys but cooping myself in the room mugging, haha cause i am super busy and smashed by the school work, all th to my econs teacher =/ but from the room i am really very energised and refreshed because of the dense atmosphere of love emitting from the family of God (luckily not emitting B.O)
Wah anyway, feeling kinda stress as usual (durh jc leh.) but really clinging on to him man, really because my life is at stake? haha. hmmm tomorrow gonna go for the Temasek Lifescience Lab (TLL) for my selection exam. very scared because of several things. Firstly, the attachemnt is 8 weeks long. (hope u all know how impactful dat is) Secondly, it is way out of my comfort zone.
I dunno if this is the best for me.
Good: Biology has alway been my area of studies and passion. Ambition to be a researcher and cure this stupid colour blindness of mine. Such chances dun come very often seriously. Only 2 per school leh, like 12 in Sg or sumting? i dunno.
BAD: 8 weeks leh. 8 weeks worth of training, 8x3=24. 8 service, 8 care group,8 weeks worth of remedial etc and make up lesson, 1 church camp, blah blah blah. ALOT JIU SHI LE LA.
I will just do my Best, God do the rest. seriously i am already very glad i made it this far and even if i dun get in, i will stil lthank God (because its really worth thanking, 8 weeks saved.) but if i get in, oh well, i will glorify him and find his fingerprints on life. He is the creator. XDD.
Finally, wanna thank jasmine for talking me thru this thing. Thank Bryan for giving advice and constant concern. Thank good buddy amanda. Flo for listening to me whine -.-
The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall never be in want.
12:23 AM
12:23 AM