We stumble, but don't fall

2007-08-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

OKOK!
by popular demands... here i am to update!
Hahah... man i am popular, haha. ok lar super tired after mugging. starting to go full gear for my promos though, dun want my class to start with an 08 in front T.T

Hmm... miss chung cheng man. haha so wierd that day me and my cchms friend went out, and we started seeing th school song! LOL. wah but very heart warming that so many ppl like me have been so deepyly attached to our alma mater. Today you are proud of cchms tomorrow cchms proud of you!

hehe... really glad recovering from "dryness". God is Good. haha tests are meant to be passed and he wont give us what we cant handle. Yeap. All JC peeps study hard for promos. we own promos. A lvl ppl and db ppl alike jiayou we will own haha. Hope tpjc, we own for God. Altogether now!

2007-07-04T15:59:00.000+08:00

Hmmm..has been quite awhile since i last blogged, so here i am updating it with my NEW KEYBOARD. =DDDD whahaha....it has been an up and down week for me and whow...so many things happened.

Firstly, got back my mid year exam papers, well at least some of them. never failed so badly in my life before la omg... super depressing lor. Wtf i got like 35/100 for my chemistry, 18/60 for my maths....wah piang. dunno wad the hell i doing. super scary sia. didnt expect that at all, man doesnt feel good failing at all. Really dun wanna see an 08 infront of my class name next year la (in another words, retain) Kena woken up by my Maths teacher, she's really a good teacher of TPJC, mdm lim jinn. Really lor. Dunno wad have i been doing for the pass 6 months la, not attentive and stuff...really cannot let this carry on. if con't like dat hor, its over le. And wad she said really woke me up lar. "4H2 student failing maths, 4H2 class with only 3 person passing maths. People take 4H2 to get scholar, where are the scholars in our class?" Whah feel super gek lor....pek chek. Must work hard for this end year already if not arh... cham liao. Really dun wanna do badly. Hope my econs and biology will get better grades bah. But disappointed lar. haiz.

But this coming saturday is "LIVE EARTH"!!! Hooray~~can show our support to conserve the environment. World climate has been becoming real bad and man.... people still dun give a damn abt why singapore is getting hotter and hotter year by year. rainy season seemed to have changed the timing also. SO ppl, those who read this pls wear green to support! And pls recycle plastic bags, if possible, dun even take plastic bags from super markt. Dun be like those aunties go one time supermarket chiong plastic bags. Plastic bags cannot be eaten de relax. SO PLS RECYCLE. haha, i love the environment.

2007-06-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

finally blogging again. LOL revival to my own blog! whaha... so many things happen between now and since i last posted.
HMM lets start with the most recent, which is like my. Mid year exam chemistry, TODAY! haha. and you know sumtting. I got like 50 marks blank?! its a total killer paper. everyone in the school seem to be mocking at those who studied bcos they did fail anyway =/ lol. Hmm....many of my friends going over to october intake polytechnic admission, wondering if i shud join them too.*
Yesterday watched Fantastic 4 with Fish. wah very long nvr meet her le lor. then yea, really glad to have such loyal friend like her la. haha destress me, though sumting happened then which made me damn stress till now =/ good friends like her shud be well treasured.

back again to Saturday 23 june. TPJC Dragon boat team........got 4/4 for our nationals dragonboat...damn sad. team now in a mess. dunno still gt training, dunno still got db team, dunno still got coach. team sunk into depression so much so dat all cant be bothered to study already...really sad. like Gan Da said, you are trying to squash out our "dragon" spirit"? NEVER. its OUR CCA u are trying to squash stupid school. zzz. maybe all jump to PA? who knows.

Really sorry for sumtings.

2007-05-16T21:32:00.000+08:00

wow...life in jc really flies man. 10 weeks of JC life is abt to pass by le. meaning about left, 6 more terms to A lvl? this is damn crazy. haiz.... however ,
Wah really damn regret act smart come over to TPJC for certain reason. Not doing well here at all lor. Can go NYJC de dun go, act smart come to this school which doesnt have any motivation for me to come to school even to the slightest bit lar.
Dragon boat J1 not enuff people, they say next year maybe we are gonna merge with canoeist to form SSC. By then, even the last thing dat i look forward to in coming to school is gone. tell me go school for wad?
Study? omg how the hell to study in such sucky environment and such crap shit time table? the school admin is like so damn slow to change my class can? gonna be 2 weeks le wad the hell are they doing. Our notes come to think of it, where got ppl notes print lecture slides de?! come on la.even in secondary school our note is better than wad is being offered here can.
Really regretted act smart. can go nyjc dun go. can pursuit CCA dragon boat. can hang out with old classmates. can have better notes and do better for As. the biggest mistake of my life is feeling up the form A. regrets.

bryan woke me up

2007-05-05T22:01:00.000+08:00

Wah really thankful for bryan today larh, talking to me and stuff regarding my spiritual life lor =DD thx.
hmm...lately have been really stressed out in my pursuit for academics and fatigue by my dragon boating larh. But wad really strike me in the talk is about what motives do i have for working so hard and pushing my limits, myself or God.
Recently have really been workinbg very hard for my test, quiz, training, trying to strive for excellence, but sometimes when u are over obsessed with striving for excellence, one often misses out impt point is dat we are studying FOR Him and WITH Him. It's a plainsimple fact, but really very hard for real practise to take place lor. Wah really hope can serve like how i did during holidays. Now with gay time table and dragon boat training really hope not to lose my focus. GOD!!!!! help me lar....
Studying without him, striving without him might be effective. Might work. Might get good results. But one things is for sure. You cling victory and results with unhappiness.
Gonna revert back to proper holistic life style le. Must do it.=)
after evaluation of my attitute, my behavior and stuff, i think i really have to do sumting to change this man. I wanna be salt and light! haha... if i can revert my attention to whats above, to commit my self as i did for my studies and cca, i believe i will do well de!!

Thank You bryan =DD

2007-05-02T00:23:00.000+08:00

whow, beautiful labour day accompanied by wonderful care group activity! wow really impressed by the family atmosphere in the new care group thru this "cooking" CG =DDD. haha really cool. damn sad i had to leave early anyway. well, apologise to my CG members for not eating with guys but cooping myself in the room mugging, haha cause i am super busy and smashed by the school work, all th to my econs teacher =/ but from the room i am really very energised and refreshed because of the dense atmosphere of love emitting from the family of God (luckily not emitting B.O)
Wah anyway, feeling kinda stress as usual (durh jc leh.) but really clinging on to him man, really because my life is at stake? haha. hmmm tomorrow gonna go for the Temasek Lifescience Lab (TLL) for my selection exam. very scared because of several things. Firstly, the attachemnt is 8 weeks long. (hope u all know how impactful dat is) Secondly, it is way out of my comfort zone.
I dunno if this is the best for me.
Good: Biology has alway been my area of studies and passion. Ambition to be a researcher and cure this stupid colour blindness of mine. Such chances dun come very often seriously. Only 2 per school leh, like 12 in Sg or sumting? i dunno.
BAD: 8 weeks leh. 8 weeks worth of training, 8x3=24. 8 service, 8 care group,8 weeks worth of remedial etc and make up lesson, 1 church camp, blah blah blah. ALOT JIU SHI LE LA.

I will just do my Best, God do the rest. seriously i am already very glad i made it this far and even if i dun get in, i will stil lthank God (because its really worth thanking, 8 weeks saved.) but if i get in, oh well, i will glorify him and find his fingerprints on life. He is the creator. XDD.

Finally, wanna thank jasmine for talking me thru this thing. Thank Bryan for giving advice and constant concern. Thank good buddy amanda. Flo for listening to me whine -.-

Joke

2007-04-23T21:44:00.000+08:00

whow u wont believe the power of morning prayer till you really try it man! it really strengthen ur day la! whow. and prayer really works. Initially i tot my ipod video is screwed cause it doesnt have a photo library for me to input photos and watch in my ipod. but the after prayer yesterday, the ipod auto reset then have photo library. How cool is dat?!

Another thing u uys will not believe is the very very amusing thing dat happened in school. really funny XD. Our school are priviliged to hold the European Union meeting, so all those high commisions etc from various country such as Germany, spain, finland etc are all in my school. The some of the students (including me) are required to attend the opening ceremony of "European Union in school" So all these big shots were sitting at the front central seats in our TPJC auditorium. And guess what?! Due to overwhelming rain, our audit roof started dripping water before water start literally flowing in. OMG>< lol damn entertaining. haha.

And saturday's sermon for striving for excellence?! really cool. Yeap! =D

revived

2007-04-15T02:13:00.000+08:00

Whow... thank goodness that blogs are in cyber space if not it woulkd have already gatehred a super thick layer of dust larh?! haha....yeay am very glad today... dunno why... finally thought things through and yeap =)
hmm some problems have been troubling me academic issues and stuff such as relation probs...my time table is really screwed anyway. With schpool ending average at 430 to 630... GOD!!!! Do Something! Any thing! liew...>< after thinking through, think its time i really do sumting about such stuff la. prioritise things and stuff,if not i think i will forever just stuck here. i want my sheep de ok?! yeay.... so will be focusing more on Him and trying to let him take front seat (not easy ok?! christian knows dat -.-) anyway, yeah!! haha. Gonna overcome bgr and stuff!! yeay one shot settle all. =)
Got new shepherd though miss my old shepherd, but nvm still can crap with him. New shepherd Bryan Ng (bra yearn) and he is really crappy, he sleeps in lecture as if listening to rock and roll. LOL. Previous shepherd is Dennis chua, has been my shepherd since i converted. He really changed my life and i thank him for that! yeap. also to my other leaders such as apinun and bing liang, cudnt have done it without them lor. yyeay. i wanna be like dem soon. haha. must GROW.
Also got new care group, YOUTH EAST A 2! the TPJC care group whaha....will hit unit size real soon!! check it out yoz~~
wah i think i super high. nvm cause i think i gonna start chionging for God liao. Worth high-ing. LOL.

BTW dragon boating and co.? rocks.

Sometimes i really dont know

2007-03-10T00:30:00.000+08:00

recently the posting results just came out, and i was posted to TPJC. initially i was lilke "wtf" but was really disappointed la. MJC cut of is partial 10 and i cant make it despite having 10?! Its my first and second choice summore leh. What the hell.
Then after i attended TPJC orientation, although all is school bound, its pretty well done and the people there are really friendly and gang-ho lah. Haha daniel was damn steady ^^B is for Barbossa!!! LOL. Initially got over not getting into MJC (which is like my dream school) and that means none of my birthday wishes came true. And then....
Grace told me over msn that she and c.s who scored 11 got into mjc by band. Singapore go by meritocracy? encourage people to join uniform group? and what do those people who listen really recieve? Injustice like this.
Peopl around me tell me its Thy Plan, well i am suppose to know it la. But knowing is definitely much easier then Accepting it. Its totally different. The feeling really sucks when nothing u wanted it to be turns out the that way.

3 weeks from restructure

2007-03-05T02:22:00.000+08:00

Recently hadnt been really feeling damn happy and the usual hyperactive me.. people start asking why i look so sian. Hmm... the Bible is really right to say dat when one Rejoice, all rejoice with him but when one is depressed, none can be spared. So many things are happening, People not getting A lvl results and people, dear friends, of mine are transfering in 2 or 3 weeks time. It's sad really. Sometimes i wonder why people of God have poor or unsatisfactory results. They served and they worked hard! they desired to honour and glorify His name, yet such tragedy befall on them...well when i was praying upon this, God gave me a verse. Its about this blind man, who hadnt sin but was born blind. Reason is that He have to be blind before he can be used as a miracle and a sign to show others as testimony! His plans we might not know, but what we know is that His plans are good and thats all we need to know^^
Once again being volunteered to do worship during CG...teeth chatters. Man second time only leh!! But am determined to set it right and really let iut be ministering especially its one of the few times whereby everyone is gonna try make their way down!
Hahah...couple of days ago, Florence told me to stop drinking coke( again) yes and she isnt the only one. well. This time..i really think i am gonna stop drinking coke already. Guys pray for me pls -.-" haha
Dennis and Yinglin shaved their hair, was thinking wether i shud shave or not, of all the people i asked, none said i should shave. -_-. Lol so here i am with my hair.

Happy family

2007-02-28T00:31:00.000+08:00

wah.. just came back from Jalan Kayu Roti prata^^ hehe for supper lol. Dun jealous okae? went with my family!! yeay! But seriously their food getting suckier...den the competition there getting more and more serious =/ hmm wonder if the original store can hold on for how long more...hmmm. But its their fault for lowing down their quality just because they are famous. Hmpf!
Haha...wah todae...dunno what has gotten into me... Told my parents i will do my own bed and open/close gate from now on. took me quite awhile to realise what i just said haha. Spoilt x.X But nvm time i take on some responsibility and be a good steward of my family!
Let His light shine through me!

Dong xi fa cai

2007-02-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

Wah, been quite awhile seems li last post. haha. Whow feel so great now... finished marcom assignment and deco for "Dong Xi Fa Cai". whow the reunion dinner was really great=) and Dennis's speech abt hitting 220 is really ministering. Man! i wann a see East A grow. It has been a real long time since we grow, whats wrong arh... hmm. This isnt the way lor, East A cannot remain stagnent like dat!!! 1 unit per east JC.
wah but i really felt quite sad when the feeling dat i might not see a lot of the friends i made in the past 6 months for much anymore...transfer to tertiary. Really very sad. Gonna miss them and our crapping time, slacking tai di-ing time, mugging time. Whow grads from East, love u all, u guys had made East like my home and a real family. Thanks. This is for you guys (and gals^^)

Holiday seem so long?

2007-02-19T02:00:00.000+08:00

Wah Gong xi everyone!!! haha happy new year^^ hehe...but dunno why this year the new year... i lack the anticipation and stuff X.x~~ Jialing thinks its not a seventeen year old thingy, but i guess i am too use to the super duper long holiday that i no longer feel the thrill -_- But anyway real glad, excellent time for me to really connect with my family, except my cousins are really killing me cos i just cant stand them. They are Sec 1 but i think they just aint mature, behaving like Pr 1 instead. well...every CNY is rather same to me, dun really get to connect to my cousins, they are either too young (oldest of the youngest is 12) or too old (dun really know how old, but youngest of the oldest is like...23?) Haiz... really difficult to really make the effort to connect bah..
Now i know how hard is it to actually organise an outing, tried getting sum peeps to go down to river hong bao but every one just cant seem to make it for the same time slot, wah...try to satisfy everyone's timing until seh. decided to just give up lol.
Talking abt the xtremly long holiday... its really a very long one. the longest one that i've ever been thru la! its like...till now abt 4 months?! this is crazy. Its always like this: when holiday approaches, one is always filled with excitement with their own activities and programmes, but when vacation do really come.. u realise that u have so much time dat u dunno how to really make good use of it. Looks like i shud've prayed to be a good steward of my time as well. Haha... but during holiday, you are filled with anticipation and eagerness to really start school and commit urself to hardwork and academic goals. But all the time i fail to do it because when school starts, i get so restless at going to school dat i hardly bother. THAT MUST CHANGE. hehe XDD

New year eve!!

2007-02-17T02:41:00.000+08:00

Whahah! its once again CNY. wootz^^ looking forward toward the East reunion dinner!! Dong Xi Fa cai, corny name given by Yanyu but nonetheless creative! whaha. really see the CNY reunion dinner team really making lots of preparation for the district^^ i must try do my best to help in Deco ( in fiona's team).
Hmm... at the same time also looking forward to have the East A reunion dinner at Yinglin house. wah his house is like settlers cafe can, 2 mahjong set (BWHAHAH), BANG!, Citadel (HanYun's all time fave). LOL cant wait man!! but i think its not gonna be enuff in a few more months because EAST A WILL GROW. and surely ying lin house will be too small^^ and nexus will soon be too small. yeay. lol.
wah really busy these days man, Gathering testimony for presentation for Metamorphosis and collating pictures in East for MARCOM. but nonetheless its for the kingdom and its quite fun in doing so too. haha enjoyable because its really much easier as East ppl are like so cooperative. Now still gotta work under Games Committee during metamorphosis ( nid get 6 station master from east anyone wanna volunteer?! lol) and lastly gotta do deco under wild fiona. lol.
THE JOy Of sErvIng!

2007-02-14T01:47:00.000+08:00

Hehe..went to crash MJC todae, 07S310. wow wonderful class...and the class with most cchsm ppl! yeay haha. knew a couple of new guys...like desmond from ngee ann and guo hao from tms. and guo hao really look like anime character bcos his eyes are like so watery -.-
anyway really luv the school the envrionment is great.. AND the toilet is like...so clean la?! like airport sia! and the facilities are cool, they actually maintain their soccer field and stuff.
really glad dat i am gonna go there and do sum "work"^^ anyway feel like joining those attachment programs they have to other country for sciences>< especially bio! bio owns.

MALU! at fish and co

2007-02-11T23:48:00.002+08:00

Todae is Vanessa farewell...so sad lor! wah although dun really know her well but then still part of East A...sigh one more gone >< Wah then stupid DC sabo me tell the waitress MAGGIE say my burfday...then end up whole restaurant sing burfday song~~wah my whole face is like burning red la ok?!
LOL. Still many thx to them^^

Loved and Blessed burfday boi

2007-02-11T00:19:00.000+08:00

Wah todae i was like so touched can. >< song ="o"><><

All glory goes to you

2007-02-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

Whow...todae was so freakish can! Getting back my o lvl results. wah nvr expect to be so darn scary lor. Everyone was like...praying and getting all superstitious and stuff>< KW even wore a red underwear. LOL. i half fight i wear hot pink socks^^ bwahaha
Overall pretty satisfied with my results...though i thought could've been better. expected a1s but turn out that all is a2. but i am glad that He narrowed my choice to MJC! MJC UNIT SIZE FTW!
Haiz yet unable to really understand why despite such pretty ok results i aint really happy nor rejoicing. So many of my frens seem to be unable to meet their very own expectations, really a very seh sight to see. Haiz. Singapore is like dat. results first...wonder when is this mentality ever gonna even change. Yet i pray that they will accept His plans for them and not blame bah, though its gonna be difficult.
But glad gonna go same school as most of my frens and even primary school classmates! haha.
My results, is all thx to u.

Money?!

2007-02-08T01:03:00.000+08:00

MONEY

Another random post because its just so darn frigging boring. But this time i wanna post something i really thing its a problem in Singaporeans, or at least the people i know lah.

Money. Often when i go for job interview, the first thing my employer will often say is," Hey Gabriel rite? you stay landed? then why still bother working?" Man this kinda mentality really bothers me alot lorh. where got such thing as stay landed dunnit work, family better to do can just slack off for the rest of ur life de. Dat isnt living life to the fullest at all man. sometimes people just wanna get rich, earn alot of money, just to get rich. I mean money is impt and all in such modern day society, but those who work so hard for the sake of getting rich do not know how much they have to sacrifice just to get their hands on those money. those money dun even last. haiz... rather spend more time doing some stuff that might benefit everyone or at least dat is lasting! dun understand ho w some people often think la. maybe those people just dunno how it feels to be dat well to do.

man...spoilt>< i nid to learn how to save and earn my cash man. i wanna be a good steward of my finance!! whaha.

Ask, seek, knock?!

2007-02-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

Wah tomorrow lead worship leh XD how how how?! hmm nvm Spirit led FTW! buahahaha...really hope that the worship and prayer will really be ministering and may we all really pray hard for our results man >Sigh...one more East A leaving us le >.> Vannesa(dunno how spell) leaving for Auzzie( or is it New Zealand? always mix up) for study...for THREE YEARS LEH. wah.. i think if its me i might just die there out of lonliness man! But nvm East A ppl strong de ok?! lol
hmm. Saw alex todae, the one that left chung cheng, wah he now at Junyuan...damn beng lor! wah...frens really changed him alot sia. sad.
ok la dunno wad to say too...but really hope all the grads do well man!

REblogged & lesson learnt

2007-02-06T22:34:00.000+08:00

wow...after much time consuming, throat paining, painstaking effort, my blog is finally back in shape after the, erm...accident. LOL. hallelujah^^ THANK YOU BEN for helping and teaching me haha.

Whow....gonna recieve results like in 3 more days? everyone starts to get nervous and begin sending each other SMS about "Send this to 9 people or you will fail you Os" kinda stuff-.- wonder why lol.

Hmm, this thurday cg i lead worship. First timer sia...damn scary. but nvm Faith Driven man! lol haha. Gonna choose the song "here i am" because it contains the verse which said " i will go where you send me" which i think is really very impactful to us, the grads la. and i really hope i can really lead this roles well^^ haha God bless pls><

yesterday i learnt an important lesson from apinun. Basically jasmine called the whole of East A to "fall in" saying that there is sumting real important that we shud discuss about and it really did sounded like something of life and death. Upon arrival the announcement was something i had no expected it to be, which is the MCG evaluation. The thing she wanna discusss with us about is to love non/pre-believers. how true. how simple. how fundamental. yet so many of us have failed in completely doing so. i nvr thhought that it was of such great importance, but after thinking about it, jasmine did this (calling the whole unit to come) just to show the immense important of this fundamental of christianity. Love, the greatest of Faith hope and love. how true.

First post...again

2007-01-31T12:20:00.002+08:00

Wah damn sian...for some technical reasons all my previous post tio removed, summore got one super long de leh! zzz. But thx to "diao queen", Teoh Chia Min, its now working^^ hehe see i am grateful and thank you already.

hmm...this post is gonna be like so long, because i am just gonna include all my previous posts into this post =/

Shall begin with a testimony of a "coincidental" happening, but to me, its not mere chances but how much has the Kingdom really andvanced. Last month, Dennis and me were slacking at Romantic Mac, when i saw this girl. i remembered her name, Nicole Xie. She was my primary 1 and 2 school mate and sat beside me at that time but i doubt she would rmb me so i dun wanna malu myself go talk to her. this month, during the first EX3 service "EXCITE" i saw her sitting with the East A peeps ( a bunch of fun loving and friendly ppl^^ i love them) and after the service Li yi told me that Nicole has been added to our numbers! 10 years of no interaction whatsoever and she is now my unit member and fellow sister in christ thx to street evaxing. This proves that street evaxing is effective! Not only that but it clearly showed that Our God is mighty to save ^^

Hmm...2 more days to unit matthew care group>< fun ="D" tithe ="X">< hasnt be really faithful. tsk tsk. But is costs me 2 trips!!! grrr....but thx to Li ling for bringing us there haah

Few more days to results release date.hmm... really pray hard that i can enter meridian at least and let me really lead a group there. wah really hope God can use me and really influence the people there man~ haha. cant wait to see the whole MJC during recess all bow head say grace, during training and matches all pray before starting. That will be like... so cool? Really wanna see the vision of 4JC for J.C, each JC 1 unit. I believe HE sees our heart and knows wad to plan for ^^